I'm sorry, I'm not like the others

I'm sorry I'm not like other girls,
I'm sorry I don't do excersise,
I'm sorry I don't shine like pearls,
Just please leave me alone.

I know I'm stupid and weak,
What more do you want from me?
I'm suffering here, help is what i seek,
Is it so hard to get?

I like to shut myself in my room,
To escape my fears and be happy,
The outside world is full of doom,
Why can't you accept my choice?

Now I'm very ill,
It's called depression in case you care,
It makes me sick to the gill,
Knowing that my life is gone.

People say Im looking for attention,
I'm sorry if thats what you want,
If someone says that I happen to mention,
It's no attention seeking its stating the truth.

So now I end on this final note,
I'm sorry I'm not like the others,
A tear stained letter containing what I wrote,
And now I'm set to die.